Annoyance

[poliphilo]

I don't like my father-in-law. I find it hard to be polite to him or even sit in the same room. There are reasons for this, some of which must- in the nature of things- reflect discredit on me. I've written about all this in the past and I don't want to go over it again.  Some people- all of them as far as I can see people of his own generation- find him a thoroughly decent bloke. I think the antipathy is probably deeper than the facts of the case warrant. Even if I knew nothing to his discredit I wouldn't want to be around him. Call it a magnetic repulsion.

He's been in failing health for several years now- and Ailz and I are the ones who have to deal with it day in, day out.  It would be nice if I felt something other than annoyance.

Comments

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

Yes, you can't force feelings.

I threw them out of the house once for being particularly obnoxious, but they came creeping back.

[pondhopper.livejournal.com]

Yes, I remember you telling that story here. Don't be too hard on yourself over any of it. It is what it is.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

Yes, I'll carry on doing my best...