Oh, right- Hmmm...

[poliphilo]

I was in the hotel room dressing or undressing. I had my shirt off and my mind was God knows where and Ailz snapped a photo of me. 

I'd post it only Ailz has lost the lead to her camera and can't download it. (You believe me, right?)

It shows a fat old man. A fat old man with a vacant expression. 
 
Actually- worse than that;  it shows a ghoul.

I don't believe I've put on weight, but the muscles have relaxed.

You look in the mirror and you don't see the truth. You edit and adapt. You have an idea of what you "really" look like and you lay that across the appearance. Also the reflection plays along. It smiles and grimaces and acts youthful.

In my mind I'm ageless. Or- let's say- a young-looking 40:  mature, but still slim and trim with a boyish face. People used to tell me I didn't look my age and I was pleased to believe them.

Now I come to think of it, no-one has told me that for a while.

And now I know why.

Comments

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

If I could pick my dreams I'd fly more often. I don't think I've ever been murdered (that I can remember) but I've been in plenty of situations where all hope was lost.

[currawong.livejournal.com]

I've been in life-threatening situations in dreams before, but this is the first time I've actually been murdered even once, I think ... thrown from a high terrace the first time, shot the second, (I had witnessed a woman being abducted) ... what shocked me wasn't so much being killed but the casual callousness of the perpetrators ... i woke up both times as the crunch came ... a strange experience.