Xmas Blues

OK. I've had enough. The Solstice was two days ago. Let's not do this any more.

I hate it how corporate it is- how we're all expected to be doing the same things at the same times, feeling the same emotions.

But there's no getting off the ride. We know exactly what to expect; those chugging climbs, those swooping falls. The little train has started off. The safety bar is locked in place.

An Admission

Of course my distaste for Christmas goes back to the break-up of my first marriage. After that my kids never ever got to spend Christmas Day with me. I pretended not to mind- but I did.

I've always dealt with emotional pain by stuffing it up my jumper.

The kids are grown up now. One's in Leicester, one's in Japan and one lives with me and Ailz. There are no grandchildren- yet. Perhaps it's time I moved on....