Feelings

[poliphilo]

I lose my temper once every two or three years. The last time was just after the funeral; Fabi had broken something (of no intrinsic value) and then given me a smug smile. I roared at him. Even as I was roaring I began to feel ashamed. 

Of course it was really Eric I was angry with. 

Yesterday I felt tired- to the point of wobbliness. Today I feel depleted.

Comments

[michaleen.livejournal.com]

Isn't it generally worse in the days after the funeral? Until then, there are things to do and the support of others, with well-marked channels in which the emotions may flow acceptably. Only later comes the sorting it all out, too often alone.

I inherited a very strong tendency to anger. It's mostly under control. I don't like it.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

Ailz and her mother have gone off to church this morning- which is one way of dealing with the situation, I suppose.

[michaleen.livejournal.com]

This is what religion's for, isn't it? As she says up thread, be good to yourself. You've been through more than you realize.