Why I Went Back

[poliphilo]

I didn't go back to church for God. Or not exactly. I went back for the people.

God... people....maybe it comes to much the same thing. Anyway, the fact is I didn't have enough people in my life .

People are God in his/her most challenging manifestation.

I'd been limiting my contact with people after the Wicca experience. That hadn't ended well- and along the way there had been lots of hurt- given and received.

I don't apologize for sitting in my cave for a while. It was the right thing to do at the time.

But this is the right thing to do now.

Comments

[amritarosa.livejournal.com]

I agree. It's mainly been the people and the mysterious and wonderful thing that happens when people sing/perform ritual/generally open up to the divine together.

And that's what kept me in organized paganism of one stripe or other for a long long time, despite the other difficulties. That, and also that I'm a bit of a dramatic ritual junkie. I need the art part to be there.

It's also the reason I'm not doing any of that these days- I realized it was the people I wanted to be near more than the other things, but the social parts were getting in the way of the connecting to divinity for me.

I'm approaching relationships from a different angle for now, and when it comes to being with the Gods and relishing those times, that needs to happen as it happens, where it happens (which happily had been often and in all sorts of places).

I'm sure later down the road I'll come back to wanting to include other people, formally, in my spiritual life. Time to be away for now.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

It must be about five years since I stopped "doing" Wicca. I'm missing it. Ailz and I have talked about getting our act together for Beltane- just the two of us- and writing or improvising a ritual. I feel the need to balance the churchgoing with something a little more visceral.