Chuff-chuff-chuffing Along

[poliphilo]

On one or two occasions- always at a turning point in my life- I've had the feeling that a part of me has stepped aside and is observing things from a distance. Right now I have this image in my head where my life is a model railway layout and I'm bending over it, watching the train hurrying along, leaving the branch line for the main line- or the main line for the branch line, or whatever.

I feel happy and peaceful. Unconflicted. Also mildly amused.

I said yesterday that this new alleigance would probably last out my time- and it probably will, because I'm 58 next birthday- but not necessarily so. We can only know the truth in parts- a little at a time- because the whole of it is just too big for our brains. Anglican Christianity is the fragment I'm embracing now- at this particular point in the continuum- but where there's life there's change - and in ten years time, who knows?  

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[veronica-milvus.livejournal.com]

I can't help sayoing I'm a little bit disappointed that you are going back to something you left behind. Do you really believe that Jesus was God incarnate and he can save your soul for eternity? No doubt you will have more to say on that subject. At least Wicca was colourful and non-dogmatic. If I were heading for any organised religion I'd go for Buddhism because it seems to speak a lot of sense about the world and our response to it - but I'm really too lazy.

There are several of my LJ friends on spiritual quests at the moment and I wonder what spiritual people do when none of the stuff on offer makes total sense...

Good luck with it all.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure I can explain it exactly.

In fact I'm not sure I understand it exactly. This isn't a head thing; it's a heart thing.

I don't believe any of that stuff literally. But I believe in the myth.

Also I've got a thing about Romanesque churches.

One way of looking at it is that I'm reclaiming my heritage.