Finishing Unfinished Business

[poliphilo]

40 years ago I left home vowing, "Never again." I put down roots in a city 200 miles away and only ever went back for short visits. For many years the crossing of my parents threshold brought me down with a migraine.

But now here I am again, living the old life (with differences- like I've got Ailz with me) immersed in the polite routines and pieties that used to drive me up the wall when I was a kid. Little demons keep popping their little heads out of the flowerbeds and I set my teeth and grin at them until they go away. 

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[sovay]

Little demons keep popping their little heads out of the flowerbeds and I set my teeth and grin at them until they go away.

Go, you. I do not say that sarcastically at all. If they're going away: good.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

A whole bunch popped up this afternoon. I've been grinning extra hard.

[pondhopper.livejournal.com]

They say you can't go home again but I think you have and this time on your own terms.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

My own terms? Yes, I suppose so...

[athenais.livejournal.com]

How strange it must be to live there again. I think you will need all your grins and sangfroid to manage it.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

Some days are easier than others.

[w. lotus (from livejournal.com)]

That's a huge change.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

Yes. I've been emphasizing the negative aspects of it today; there are some positives too.

[wyrmwwd.livejournal.com]

Just remember, you are not the same person that you were when you left. You have changed. And now, you bring those changes with you to effect life here. The place you are now made who you were before, but now you have been re-made by another place. You are both the Changed and the Changer.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

That's a good way of putting it. Thanks.