I like "present to hand". It's liberating. I'm not my history, I'm what I am now, minute by minute. Yeah; that's sweet.
I guess my idea when I started blogging was that it would be like a masked ball. I could put on a disguise and be anonymous and unknowable and- for a very little time- that was good fun. But now I'm bored with it. And- as you say- I reveal myself (my essential nature) in anything I write. I can call myself the Grand Duchess of Lichtenstein, but the marks I leave on the page will always give the game away. I can't escape from myself.
It's like that with fiction too. Every character in every story I write is an aspect of me. It's impossible for me to create one that isn't. My personality sets limits and I can't get beyond them.
I guess writing is a way of exploring those limits, of finding out just how far you can go before you slam into the glass wall.
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Date: 2004-04-13 01:24 pm (UTC)I guess my idea when I started blogging was that it would be like a masked ball. I could put on a disguise and be anonymous and unknowable and- for a very little time- that was good fun. But now I'm bored with it. And- as you say- I reveal myself (my essential nature) in anything I write. I can call myself the Grand Duchess of Lichtenstein, but the marks I leave on the page will always give the game away. I can't escape from myself.
It's like that with fiction too. Every character in every story I write is an aspect of me. It's impossible for me to create one that isn't. My personality sets limits and I can't get beyond them.
I guess writing is a way of exploring those limits, of finding out just how far you can go before you slam into the glass wall.