It's all too easy to build a person who's not true. I am much more conflicted and complex than the personality I present on LJ--here's one: I have terrible stage fright, which breaks my heart because I love to sing.
And that's just one.
I've been thinking about this: why do I want people to read my stuff? Because it feels like a friendship.
If I were to pretend to be somebody else, someone younger and more beautiful (with a charming, fake photo of myself) and maybe with a Ph.D, I'd have to sustain a pack of lies that would inevitably be found out, because underneath the festooning I'd still be me, worrying about driving in heavy traffic or frowning into the mirror, hating getting older.
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Date: 2004-10-28 12:40 pm (UTC)It's all too easy to build a person who's not true. I am much more conflicted and complex than the personality I present on LJ--here's one: I have terrible stage fright, which breaks my heart because I love to sing.
And that's just one.
I've been thinking about this: why do I want people to read my stuff? Because it feels like a friendship.
If I were to pretend to be somebody else, someone younger and more beautiful (with a charming, fake photo of myself) and maybe with a Ph.D, I'd have to sustain a pack of lies that would inevitably be found out, because underneath the festooning I'd still be me, worrying about driving in heavy traffic or frowning into the mirror, hating getting older.