Not An Elegy

[poliphilo]

This poem is related to the last one I posted. It was written a few years later- and belongs to my "angry" phase. The anger is something I now longer feel entirely comfortable with. These days- insofar as I care one way or the other- I'm sorry rather than pleased that the Church had to sell its pretty, Jacobean retreat house to a footballer.

NOT AN ELEGY

 

Seen from the air, in this online photo

The hills look like nothing, like ripples in sand,

But me, I’ve climbed ‘em. I’ve weaved and I’ve wended

From valley to valley. I know they can kill you.

I once had them try.  The day is yellow

With inky blue cloud shadows speeding off east.

 

I point at a gap in the boskage, “And that,

Is Crawshawbooth.” It’s a smear of brightness.

 

“Phil Neville’s place ?”

 

                                      “Well no, the retreat house-

My faith took sick  there.”

 

                                      “It’s  been sold on.

He’s cut the big trees down to let in light.

The whole of Man United came

To his housewarming party. The limos and sports cars

Were bumper to bumper.”

 

                                      (I’m stood with the others

Under the grimy old plaster-work ceiling

With pendulous knobs, and the Bishop of Manchester,

Dead now, says,  “The body of Christ”

And places  the host on my tongue and I’m praying

“Dear God, just for once let this not make me think

Of fellatio.”)

                  

                             Well, the things I grew up with

Are passing away. This is just one instance.

 

Out go the parsons and in comes the shining

Great swarm of the footballing Joes with their gals

And celebrity pals.  It makes me so glad.

Comments

[frumiousb.livejournal.com]

I can imagine that it makes you uncomfortable, now. But I have to say that it's a really strong poem-- quite good, I think.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

The important thing is that- no matter what I feel or think now- it was true at the time.

[pondhopper.livejournal.com]

Anger has its place and it's what you felt at the time.
It's actually more cynical than angry.
I like that.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

Sometimes you have to get angry- or cynical- to progress. To be continually angry and/or cynical would be soul-destroying.

Very strong again!

[brttvns.livejournal.com]

I must admit to smiling at the 'fellatio' line.
Do you still write on a regular basis, and have you ever attempted or ever been published?

[pondhopper.livejournal.com]

Of course!
But at the time it was right and you have evolved.
:)

Re: Very strong again!

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

I've got a lot of credits in magazines, large and small, but I gave up trying to make a career several years back. I suspect I reach a larger, wider audience by "publishing" here on the Net than I ever did before.

I still write the occasional poem. They come when they're ready to come. I don't force the issue.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

And that's what life is all about.

[veronica-milvus.livejournal.com]

I used to go on Christain retreat to Orton Hall in Cumbria. It's now a posh hotel, so I suppose I could retreat back there some day!

memories, huh?

[ideealisme.livejournal.com]

I like this!

[oakmouse]

A former retreat house at Thames is now the home of Dwina and Robin Gibb, so Phil Neville's not alone.

Excellent poem. if you've now gone on to feel differently, fair enough, but the poem's still good.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

Crawshawbooth was basically Jacobean, with Victorian additions. It was built on the side of the moor, with woods at the back of it. A lovely place. I'm using the past tense but I suppose it's still very much as it was.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

[poliphilo.livejournal.com]

It's a sign of the times that the poor old Church of England can't afford to maintain these places any more.

I'm glad you like it. I do too- even though I cringe slightly at some of the things it says.