Odd, Tony: last night I was thinking about my life, and how dull and useless it is, how I have little to offer and am closed up and selfish.
(Philip Roth just came out with a new book, Everyman, that is mostly about our lives leading toward illness and death. Yuck, but: of his protagonist's relatively healthy middle twenty years, Roth said, "Twenty years went by." That's how I feel about my life right now--everyman, insignificant, marking time.
Maybe I can start getting more profound, but I have my doubts. My brain's no longer agile enough, and--worse--I have lost the spark of caring enough. (I wonder if that spark is what people call "religion"? I think I'll read Blake--he's wonderfully "religious" and reminds me there is that inner life that exists in everyman.
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Date: 2006-05-10 04:22 am (UTC)Odd, Tony: last night I was thinking about my life, and how dull and useless it is, how I have little to offer and am closed up and selfish.
(Philip Roth just came out with a new book, Everyman, that is mostly about our lives leading toward illness and death. Yuck, but: of his protagonist's relatively healthy middle twenty years, Roth said, "Twenty years went by." That's how I feel about my life right now--everyman, insignificant, marking time.
Maybe I can start getting more profound, but I have my doubts. My brain's no longer agile enough, and--worse--I have lost the spark of caring enough. (I wonder if that spark is what people call "religion"? I think I'll read Blake--he's wonderfully "religious" and reminds me there is that inner life that exists in everyman.