Just Like Gandalf

[poliphilo]

The light over the mirror in the cloak room at Wagamama was brighter than I'm used to- and it showed me that I'm no longer greying about the temples but white. I've transitioned- just like Gandalf. Hooray.

But the inner self doesn't think of itself as old. Later in the day I was at the doctor's to pick up a prescription. The rules in place to stop us catching the sniffles allow only one person at a time at the reception desk so we were queuing outside in the drizzle- and I was looking at the people behind me and thinking, "It can't be healthy for these poor old dears to be standing about in this weather- perhaps I should step aside and let them go first...."

Comments

[cmcmck]

Transitioned?

You never told us! :o)

[poliphilo]

Not that kind of transition- just a wizardly upgrade!

[lokbiiviing]

That's very lovely and very normal. Old age happens to the body. I think our sense of self remains somewhere between childhood and early adulthood for the rest of our lives. I think it must be because we were "made" then. I'm rather disturbed by how I always seem to be something like 25 in my dreams, even if I know in the dream that I am in my forties. It just doesn't read as the truth.

Albus Anthony. :)

[poliphilo]

I have three children who are now all in their 40s, but when they show up in my dreams it's almost always as little kids.

I think this is normal. The essential self is ageless- and is therefore going to picture itself as it was at its physical peak- which will be some time after adolescence and before the onset of middle age.