I don't know if this is going to make any sense to you at all, because I don't really understand it myself, but after years of avoiding church because I hated what it seemed to stand for, I recently became comfortable sitting through a church service again. For some reason, becoming a Pagan, and a Druid, has given me the insight into what was missing for me when I was a Christian. Even when I was a Bahai, I still didn't feel comfortable in a church setting, but now I have found Druidry I do. Now I understand the history a little better, and I do believe that Jesus was real, if a little over-hyped, I find it a comfortable place to be again, and I like that feeling. I am actually wishing I could attend Midnight Mass this year.